I'm so damn tired.
Haven had a good rest in a super long time.
Been going out almost every single day since….. I can’t remember when.
Been sleeping only after 12am almost every weekday and even later during weekends.
I feel so lost.
Not knowing what to do every single day except to just go out and kill time.
I was so tired till I could barely open my eyes during meeting just now.
But on the thought of........ my eyes open.
Thinking makes me a lil more awake but I hate that feeling.
I feel so useless still not able to make a decision at this point in life.
Girl, you are old enough to think and make decisions!
Learn to make ONE.
There only 2 ways now.
Either you go for it or you move on.
Do whatever you think is right and just don’t regret.
No point standing on the dot walking around in a circle.
It's never ending.
But usually I'll always end up regretting my decision thus resulting me in the fear now.
I really don’t feel like making a decision because I don’t know what I want.
Looking back at my past 20 years of life, I felt like I never really accomplish anything.
Looking forward and it seems scary.
Since young I always look forward to birthdays, birthday after birthday.
From 16 to 18 to 21.
From kids to teenagers to adults.
Now that I'm really going to be an adult soon, it sort of scares me.
Can I ever turn back time and be a small kid who don't have any decision to make?Someone bring me the time machine.
There are so much history to be change.
