Jane claims that she's a doctor.
She said that I'm alright alr.
After she said that and after some conversation with some friends, I went through some thinking.
Having to show him that I'm better off w/o him everyday in school.
To put up a happy face like as thou nth happen.
To smile to everyone and tell them I'm alright.
I'm alr over it.
Having to put up a smile during work.
Trying not to drink too much.
Not to get emo at work.
Not to cry at work.
Having to keep myself busy every other day so that I won't think too much.
Keeping myself busy with sch, work and frens.
Going out like almost every day.
Spending money n buying almost everything I see.
Keeping myself so busy till like there's no rest time.
Am I really that strong??
Have I really let go?
Or was it jus me running away from all this reality.
So that I don't have to face all this shit?
When I see him with her I dun feel good.
When I see their photo I think of the past.
Why does it seems so diff this time round?
Things ain't suppose to be like this.
Are they?
Why does it hurt more then it usually does?
Why does it seems harder to let go this time?
Why does it take so long to heal?
Why does it heal?
Why?
I no longer understand this girl in the mirror.She seems so weak to me.So tired.So so so tired.