I've been seraching for an answer in everything that had happened.
But....
I've come to realise that knowing the truth might jus be the worst nightmare.
I had another blog where I used to blog when we had quarrels.
I didn't blog here coz I jus wan a space to let out everything yet not telling anyone.
Now that I read back on those entries, I deteled the entire blog.
Everyone asking me to let go.
Of this someone that I know I can't.
After all this I come to realise that it not him that I've to let go.
But myself.
Let go of this girl who revokes herself around him.
Who will spare all her time jus for him.
Spending her time to know him better.
Tried to love what he loves n hate what he hates.
Tried to change herself so as to keep the r/s working.
But still.........
It never works.
For the past few weeks she never had a proper meal.
She cried.
She can't sleep.
She can't breathe.
She can't do anything.
Everything she does bring her back to those MEMORIES.
Even drinking doesn't help her to get to bed.
But I guess she had given her best to him n that r/s.
No more regrets.
What's done is done.
The rest is not up to her to decide.
