this entry are deliciated to some of my frenz only.
1st - Mellie.Girl I know you have been going throught alot.
I understand how you feel and everything.
I know you are trying very hard to be strong.
If you are tired you always have me ard.
If you need someone I'm always here.
Hope that everything is alright for u.
Maybe things can't always be alright.
But at least for now.
If u wanna cry I can lend u my shoulders.
If u wanna whine/complain I can lend u my listening ears.
If u wanna go out I can accompany you.
Dun keep everything to yourself n put so much stress on yourself ok?
2nd - Janie.I'm sorry for not able to be at Dbl O today.
For some reasons and that I'm not feeling that well.
I dun feel like going.
I know it's been hard on you too.
Time will kill everything.
Sooner or Later.
That all that matters.
But pls still do take care of urself.
Dun get too drunk and everything ok?
I'm always here for you ok.
<3 hugs. =D
3rd - Paul.Dun be so stress.
I know that you are worried abt her.
But dun put so much stress on urself.
You dun have to thank me for listening to you.
Because that's what frenz are for.
Or perhaps to me it were you lend me a listening ear instead.
I'm gald that I have u as a fren. =D
For whatever lies that u live in if u dun like.
Face up to it.
It may be hard.
It may hurts.
But it won't last too long either.
Like I say it will be over soon.
It's jus a matter of time.
And now the below entry is for myself.
Been thinking alot recently.
Till the extend that I can't sleep.
Even when I feel so tired all over my body I still can't sleep.
I know that I can't take this. I know that I feel ........ .. but I dunno how to.
I can't find a reason to do it.
Or perhaps I can't find an excuse to do so.
Been living in my own lies. I know my heart have shifted.
No longer on that him.
Some things are happening.But deep inside me I still cannot believe it's happening.I dun wanna admit that it's happening.But the feelings is too strong to resist.Should I follow my heart or follow my brain?I can't get things clear.The path infront of me is like a maze.A maze filled with mist.A maze that I dunno where there might be no exit.Or perhaps I went the wrong way.I no longer knows what I'm doing.I'm longer that me.Or perhaps I'm jus dening that it is me.All along that I've been lying.Lying to myself and the world.It's getting too tired.Too tired to do anymore thing.I'm sick.I can't move anymore.Can someone decide for me?Can I earse all my mermories and start all over again.Can I choose no to be in this world?Can I choose not to be in the position that I'm in?Is there anything I can do to change anything?Haix.Life simply sux.