Jus read Janeie's blog.
Feelings are running all over my body.
Many claims that her entry made them cried.
Reason being, it brng them back to the past fond memories.
For me.....
I wasn't brought back to any fond memories.
Because I dun seems to have any FOND memories.
All that was in me are purely memories but none of them were fond.
Till this age of mine.
Till this far I've walk.
Wat have I gone through n wat have I understand?
Happiness?
What the meaning for it?
How does it feels like?
In wat suitutation then it's consider so?
It seems to be smth so far and so hard to reach out to.
It never seems to appear in my life before.
In the future?
I hope so but I doubt so.
Too many promises I've heard b4.
None were real.
Someone ever told me.
When things are right in front of you, you never realise.
I think I did realise but jus pretended not to see.
But I came to realise whenever a decision is made, it was nv right.
No decision that I've ever made is right.
Doesn't that sound stupid.
Yes, I admit I'm stupid.
There's a feeling in me.
I dunno what it is but it jus feel so pain.
So pain so pain that it seems like........
Have you ever realise that you were wrong in smth but there's nth u can do to change or made it better?
Who can understand this feeling.
So lost so lost.
I did a lil so call research.
Take a look
here.12 of out the 16 ppl actually thinks that I'm either the cheerful or happy type.
Seriously I do laugh n smile every single day.
But has someone ever counted the pain n tear I had?
I'm jus so tired.
p/s: I'm refer in general for my life and not to a particular someone ok.Btw I'm taking my sup paper next week so everyone pls wish me luck~!! =)Below this part is for some of my friends.
I dunno wat went wrong but I seriouly hope that all of you will be back like wat you ppl used to be. It hurts seeing all those entry that you guys wrote. I jus wish to let you all know that in life there are always up n down even between friends. Maybe jus for this part of my life or her life or his life they are not free for u but doesn't mean that you are no longer that someone so close.
This part below for my Besties~!!
We dun have to meet up everyday. As long as you got me in you we are still bestie. We jus need to take a lil more effort and we will be out a lil more often and that enough already. =) 