I'm jus so tired.
Life no longer seems to hold a
meaning for me.
Everything will be still in place even w/o me.
Jus feeling so tired and wish to hide away for some time.
Thur went to sentosa.
Had fun from the start but not in the end.
Got
drunk.Vomitted.
1st time. Haha. =X
Thanks for all those who took care of me that day.
But for all I rem was only Jane, Crystal and Fabian who actually really took care of me.
Thx ppl. Sorry to trouble u guys. LOL
Went to was "The Fog" ytd.
Not a very nice show.
Won't suggest ppl to watch it.
Coz I dun understand it. LOL =X
I've been trying
so hard so hard to get my life and
everything involve
in place.
But nothing seems to be.
No matter where I go and where I stand or whom I with, I felt like I was alone.
And I seriously
hate this feeling.
Who can understand how I feel?
It's been a long long time since I last enjoyed my day.
One
WHOLE day I mean.
There seems to be so many thing undone n untouch.
There seems to be too many thing to stop me from the word
happy.
Too many.
Jane, I know I shouldn't be thinking on the negative side but that cheerful me no longer exist.
It's lost in some where and I've yet to find it back.
Like you know diff ppl with diff expection.
You know wat I mean.
Boo, I admire you to be able to put up this much but I'm diff from you.
Coz I can't.
I understand but doesn't I've to agree with it.
Furthermore it takes time.
How long? I really dunno.
Ppl say the more you've gone through the more you should be able to put up with.
But I dun think so.
Perhaps it doesn't apply to me only.
The more you have gone through, the more u know wat u should be doing n wat u should not.
Therefore if you dun want history to repeat itself you won't be putting up with thing as much as in the past.
Now that I've walk here, things are diff.
I'm trying very hard to change but it's not as easy as 123..
It's not easy to love someone.It's hard to make the one you love love you.It's harder to ask the one u love to love u back the way u want him to.Alvin, I'm sorry for not being a gd gf. At times I maybe a lil more
unreasonable and a lil more
demanding but I hope you will understand. I'm not the type that will tell you everything straight into your face. Certain things you'll have to find out yourself. It's not easy for me to tell u how I feel and everything everytime when things happen. Certain things are jus not to meant to be spoken. Certain thing jus can't be say out. Alot of things I
understand but it doesn't mean I
accept it. Being able to understand and being able to accept is two diff things. Hope you get wat I mean. But I still
love you and yearn to be with u till where time stops. =)
