Tuesday, May 24, 2005 8:44 PM
seriously i really dunno wat'sthe matter with me recently!! there is simply jus this confuse feeling within me.. so unsure N uncertain of wat i wan!! argh!! and i simply hate the feeling of being in love when u know u will not be love in return!! is there a stupider thing to do?!?! argh!! why do i always do the wrong thing at the wrong time? suddenly i feel that i'm back to the emotional me.. haix.. i thought i've learn to control my tear but thing jus dun seems to be the way it was for the past few months.. its jus too tired trying to be strong.. i no longer have the streghth.. how i wish i could jus fall into someone arms n stay there to be protected.. simply jus too tired.. wish for some to be there infront of me.. so that i could simply hide behind.. but it seems that no one understand me.. i might look happy but who knows the fact? i'm falling apart!! is there some one that i can relay on? is there some one that i can lean on and cry N tell my trouble to? haix.. even if i wan to say, words jus doesn't come out from my mouth.. haix.. jus can't put my feeling into words.. wat the matter with me!!! argh!!!
